Today, I saw a freelance job I liked the look of. It asked for a CV so I updated it and sent it off. This may not sound like a big thing to do, but after the last couple of weeks, when even typing a sentence was proving a major effort, it is. Whether or not I get the job, I'm glad that I've done it. Feels like a step forward.
I've also got back into the writing thing. Managed to meet my deadlines on a couple of pieces (just). Was determined not to let my (lack of) love life affect my work.
Day by day, it's getting easier. I've now gone for three days without wearing my engagement ring (yes, I should have taken it off when the split happened but it triggered a Pavlovian sobbing outburst every time I tried so I decided to wait until I was ready) and two days without crying.
Tonight, I'm off out the the launch of a new book. It's the kind of thing I'd have gone to with my ex (still getting used to typing that word!) but, even though we've had a couple of friendly evenings out together, I decided to go with a mate instead. I'm looking forward to it. And that is a very good thing.
Posted by emilyd at March 26, 2003 04:02 PM